Posts by Symph

Omg that's like when I dreamed I was back with my wife LOL Then you wake up and you're like "nope still running a ghost town" And I'm like "nope still alone..." LOL

Inkeater found me in tiktok and I told her, haven't heard anything back though.

I'm trying to take myself seriously as a musician this time around. When I used to post music videos I always felt like they were no big deal and not worth hyping, I still do feel that way a bit, but I'm breaking out of it, so I've actually been hyping up the creation of this song I've already finished. As the title says it's a cover of The Beatles song Dig It, with backing vocals and organ and stuff, filmed myself playing all the parts and put it together into a video. I'd love it if anyone who finds this would go give my instagram or tiktok a look. This is an IG where I share a snippet of the song Instagram And this is the tiktok of the same video (1)I’m hooked on Dig it by The Beatles right now so I started recording a... | TikTok

I started to post a few others cause they're all so short, but the rules said one video a day so I'm guessing that applies to tiktoks and IG's too. Soon I'll be uploading the footage of me playing the individual instruments, and on the 18th I'll release the full song in snippets on social media but fully on youtube. Thanks for listening.

I am thankful that I don't really have anyone that toxic in my past (that I remember anyway). I can't really think of anyone I'd be too terribly upset if they found me, but that might just be cause I don't remember so good....

So you're worried about people you know finding you? Is that what you mean?

Didn't I see that on a fortune cookie once? hehehe

No I genuinely have no business giving tips as I've never had any true success but I will say that I've always gotten the feeling it was my inability to stick with anything that stopped me. When I DID actually consistently stick to one thing like high quality music videos for a whole month or something, I saw growth. I tend to get bored though or even like... get this panicky "I can't keep this up!" Feeling, then I pivot to something else and growth stops. So I totally do believe the internet rewards consistency, and consistency has always been difficult for me in the past.

Everything that guy Symph does? Don't do that. Do other stuff.

I don't trust myself. Even when I have the ability to think about what I'm gonna type I still say impulsive shit I regret. There's a culture war going on, all it takes is one stupid comment and I could want to go back to my hidey hole. Yes I am aware this is cowardly, but like I said, in our pm's, I'm always a little nauseus so I don't feel like I can ever just focus on what's going on. I just know I'll say something that people will clip and take out of context etc, and if it brings attention to me, positive OR negative, I don't feel equipped to deal with it. YET. But like I also said, I am healing myself more every day and these fears will disappear soon enough.

I really hope that we can recreate some of the magic we had at Yttalk. Obviously nostalgia goggles might make some of us a bit unrealistic when we remember, but for real, we would go hours and hours just making each other crack up at absolutely nothing. And there was a genuine excitement when someone from the forum did well. I remember a buddy of mine going viral and all night me and him were talking about it and I felt like I'd gone viral I was just so excited for him. So yeah, community is everything, and I hope we can get that going here again.

I think I would have liked it more if it was a bit punchier. I really can't give you a perfect reason why I found him a bit boring, it just wasn't like.... I dunno I just thought "Yeah he'd be fun to hang out with" But that wasn't really making me want to keep watching you know?

I just have imposter syndrome and can't take myself seriously, however I genuinely improve my physical state every day, and it seems to be less and less as time goes on. I thought I was ready to get back out there and start posting confidently, but now that I have done a few TikToks and Instagrams I'm already having that "I shouldn't have posted that" feeling, so I don't think I was as ready as I thought. I have a feeling that the live content will help break me of this, but I'm still stalling on that, maaaaaybe I'll go live today, we'll see.

Well... I feel like I've been too hard on skimmer and I am sorry for my knee jerk reactions. Like it or not it appears that mankind is pretty split on this, and plenty of people don't see it as scummy or scammy. The idea that a few years from now we won't even know who's real and who's not just kills me inside, but yelling at people I hardly know isn't the answer. I'm trying to step back and just listen to others about it at this point, but no promises cause I'm an impulsive little shit sometimes and I can't help it 😁

Well in theory they should really dig what I do then, but so far today I'm getting no interaction on my tiktoks at all 😭

Yeah which is kinda sad, we go back in time now and everything was wholesome and kind of witty and free and fun, but people watching us? It's gonna be WAP and that "my neck my back" song.... lmao

No, I'm crying because feels.... I just can't take the feeeeeels...... see now I'm crying because I'm crying!!!! WHAT IS LIFE!!!

Step 1. Post videos

Step 2. Don't cry on camera.

Step 3. Stop crying on camera.

Step 4. Post more videos.

Step 5. Please stop crying.

Step 6. Victory.

Yeah that's why I'm also interested in doing reaction content. It really seems like such a great life plan if you can just get the patreon support, play video games a few hours, react to videos and give your opinions, just do it every day, I mean once there's a built in audience then the creativity can really flow and the high production stuff can come back but I just think the whole "be online all the time" strategy seems more um.... doable, less risk to reward gap if you get what I mean.

This is why I'm happy to be pivoting to live content, when I was doing youtube, some of my videos would take almost a week to make, like the bee song, and those videos could wind up getting far less views than others I put almost no effort into. It can be really disheartening, so I love the idea of just every video being spontaneous, same level of effort, easily can be done any day any time, cause then if one does better or worse than another who cares we're doing it again tomorrow. It's that whole "I poured myself into that for a whole week and no one is watching" Feeling that just suuuuuckssss....

This is the first time in history that anyone on planet earth who has a really great idea can viably get that idea out to the whole world.